i am seeking
where can i see the depths of you that i allow
and what dont i allow
how can you breathe my child
when there are suffocating spaces of silence
cramped corridor with the mantra contain the contamination
you are not grotesque despite your claims
outwardly spinning
the time is now to jump
she tells you to jump
she states it full with frustration as if it is simple and plain
as if you should know this already
and you do
you want to lash out
you want to turn it on her as if she is the enemy the one who is mistaken
and yet you know she is an external version of your own voice
loud boom
the clashing thud of existence
in this instance we are more one than i have realized
and there is more realization in this current moment than i care to admit
finding something amidst haste
where am i to locate faith
how do i develop my own rightful godliness
there are footsteps trodden
the path includes work
and what are my resistances against myself
how do i scream out the passions of my soul
how do i let them be known unto me
reveal thyself sweet spirit
tell me of my purpose
i am tired and lonesome in this forsaken detour
its time to get to know yourself child
its time you reconnect to the divine
you are not alone in this
but this is your own path for making
how do we turn the mirror inwards
when does the self decide unto itself
and embrace all that there is
how do we get out of our own way
it seems and all that seems is illusion
how in having this human experience do we remain spiritual beings
i ask
i wonder
i wait
but i need to act
i need to move in some direction
any direction
movement is fluidity, it is nature, change is the only constant
find comfort there
dance the dance of life
allow the music to flow through you, to vibrate in oscillating pattern
give in to yourself
to your true and genuine nature
what is wild within you
why are you afraid of it
what would it mean to let it surface
to fall apart
to break apart this civilized exterior
this mundane plot
